Thursday, 17 July 2014

Camino 2014 ~Day 4

Ok....see here is one of the differences between doing a Camino away from home vs at home.  “No choice”.  

Today was one of those days....you know when you’re just over tired, a bit out of sorts and....well...almost no energy.  When my children were small we called them “jammie & movie days”.  At work, we called them “mental health days”.  Never under estimate the need and power of these days.  And....whenever possible....take advantage of these days.  Catch up on your sleep, enjoy a massage, a walk, some shop, others play golf or fish....these are important days to removed as much negativity from your energy so you can recharge and put things back into perspective.

The fact is, sometimes....it’s not that easy to take full advantage of this need and meet it; such as if one were on a Camino away from home because....you have to get to the next point.  At home, you 99% of everything stressing you....will be there tomorrow.

Day 2 of Air Week: Making a commitment to change your life; and the book affirmation is “I honour my commitments to myself and to others.”  And the intent is to become even more aware of the air around you. 

With all this in mind and....it being “one of those days”....I allowed myself an easy day.  It didn’t hurt that I slept in.....  I took a book I’m reading...”The Toltec Path of Recapitulation” and a cappuccino then went out on my deck, sat in a comfy chair and read for awhile.  I enjoyed the gentle breeze; sometimes pointing my face in its direction allowing it to caress my face.  I listened as it made the leaves on the walnut tree (Melissa) whisper to the maple trees who responded in kind.  Birds took advantage of the thermal winds guiding gracefully across the sky.  Some birds perched themselves around the yard as if they too enjoyed watching the flowers dancing.  Calm, quietness and...peace.  I was honouring my commitment to myself, committing to change my life which included...getting outside, becoming more aware of the world around me – especially....nature.

From my, Self Care Cards, I drew my affirmation....”Progress ~ Charge forward ~ be willing to make mistakes.” 

I did move my altar to a more secure location.  My children and one of their friends helped me deliver some items to the Goodwill.   And we picked up a few things while we were out.  One daughter had to work, another visited with friends and...my remaining daughter and I enjoyed some quiet mother/daughter time. 

It wasn’t until late at night, did I realize I didn’t do my blog.  But, no problem...I knew the task would be waiting for me when I woke up.

Two years ago July 16, I took my first steps on my Camino (because....I had no choice).  The past couple of days, I enjoyed the sites and flavours of Sarria.  I also purchased some of the traditional “Pilgrim” items, like a shell, the gourd of course....a walking stick.  That wasn’t all I purchased but, hey....

The other thing every good pilgrim must have is their passport.  This is stamped at each stop along the way, so when you arrive in Santiago, you are registered at the Cathedral and you receive your certificate of completion.  After enjoying a tradition European breakfast buffet.... and my backpack filled with everything I’ll need....I started out.

I crossed the bridge in Sarria for the last time and took my first step to Santiago.  First stop, at 11km, is Morgade.




  Here is the first arrow I see as I come close to the end of Sarria


 
 

The mural honouring pilgrims as you leave Sarria

Magical Mist to great the day and send me on my pilgrimage.  Notice the hills?

Starting out at Km 111
This mile markers appeared every .5km along the Camino. 

 
This is the first of many shells I’ll come to rely on along my Camino.  These and yellow arrows are often the only directions one can rely on as they walk through the country side.  But keep your eyes open, sometimes they are not as easy as other times to spot.  You don’t want to back track.....


This is a typical cemetery in Spain


When I saw this tree....I fell in love with it!  Its character is amazing.  How many people saw this tree, took its picture....noticed it? Who sat under it to take advantage of its shade or protection from the rain?

 
This mist is rising and...there are those hills.  On the horizon you can barely see it, but there are wind turbines.  It was three days before they were finally out of sight.

 
The first of many farm animals that roam freely; I took this photo with my daughter Chelsea in mind. 

 
Natures tunnel...offering shade, a change of scenery, protection and tranquility

 
When you walk and keep your eyes open...you might be surprised at what you see like this slug....When we were on Vancouver Island in BC we went to the Cedar Cathedral.  The BC slugs were a favorite of Courtney’s.

 
Foot ‘bridges’ to save you from walking through the mud; nature’s treasure.

 

There’s those shoes again....the cross is one of the places, you’re invited to leave a stone, but for me...in this photo, I had to pee so badly.  In the back ground you’ll see two buildings....the first for quite some time.  The building directly behind my head is the only stop between Sarria and Morgade with a “water closet” (washroom).  Relief you might think but...here...you pay to pee or whatever!
Notice too, the “waking path”...it’s really the ‘highway".
CAR!!!!

 
 
One of many churches throughout the country side

 
My first experience of none fenced in live stock.  This photo was not photo shopped nor did I zone it in.  The cow was really this close to where I was walking.

 
Morgade....Km 99.3 and today’s destination is reached

This picture and the one below...will come to be a normal site; Pilgrims taking a break at officially recognized destinations along the way, at local cafes.  These are also stop pilgrims are to get their passport stamps.

 
 Sitting and waiting for my ride....note the shoes...I’ll share more about this later
 
This dog was sat close by as I waited for the cab to pick me up in Morgade and take me back to Sarria.
 
~Buen Camino
 
 

Tuesday, 15 July 2014

Camino 2014 ~ Day 3


Today is July 15, 2014

I’ve actively begun my Camino with deliberate action.

The 28 Days to Discover You Authentic Self is a wonderful journey for those wishing to rediscover their soul’s truth.  As a Certified Soul Coach® who trained directly with Denise Linn, I offer workshops on this.  As well, I’ve had the privilege, and been invited, to journey with individuals through their discovery to their authentic self.  It really is an amazing and awakening experience. 

Because I’m adding my Discovering as part of my Camino in this blog...I’m not going to spend a lot of time explaining the details of Soul Coaching® , but if you would like more information or individual support, you’re welcome to contact me directly at carleana@itbeinc.ca.  You may wish to purchase Denise’s book “Soul Coaching - 28 Days to Discover You Authentic Self”

What I love about Soul Coaching® is that there is no right or wrong way; it’s YOUR soul’s way and that can’t be wrong.  Even the 28 Days to Discover You Authentic Self is a NO FAIL process.  There is no need for ‘starting over’, or need to ‘catch up’.  The 28 days are divided into four sets of 7 days and aligned with the four elements; air, water, fire and earth.  Each week has an intent and each of the 7 days in each week has some suggested activities, three levels each called, “Committed to Change” “Going for it” and “Playing Full Out”.  No matter which you choose to do....you will invoke change and no matter how much effort you put into these 28 days....just by reading this...your soul has already received and engaged changes for you.

This should NOT be a daunting exercise, but fun.  It can be emotional and that’s....OK!  Just remember to be kind to yourself.   Remember CLUG: compassion, loving, understanding and grace.  Think of someone or something you treasure.  How you treat them/it?  That’s how you should honour yourself.  That is what this 28 Days to Discover You Authentic Self is about!

 

First seven days; Air Week: Clearing your Mental Self

This week focuses on assessing and evaluating your life; clearing your clutter; making commitments that Empower you; stop procrastinating; getting organized; examine your core values (are the aligned with your life style); Breathe...and become aware of the quality of air you breathe and surround yourself with; notice the sounds around you (do they inspire you); use your voice – in kindness; and communicate your truth.

Two years ago today....I arrived in Madrid Spain, caught a connection flight to Santiago were I was picked up by – I forget the lady’s name – but she was wonderful and shared her experiences doing the Camino and gave me lots of interesting insights to watch for and experiences to consider while on my Camino; as she drove me to my hotel in Sarria.  Sarria would be my final destination for today, but it would be the starting point of my 111km pilgrimage back to Santiago over the next 9 days.

 
 
This is the lady I was telling you about...she was holding the sign at the gate where travelers walk out of the secure area.  It was really nice to see her and her sign; especially with my name on it.
 
This is a sample of the sorts of shell work along the way of the Camino.  Whenever you saw this shell....you knew you were welcome. 
 
This water way, was behind the hotel I stayed at in Sarria.  I cross this bridge to visit the shops, cafes etc.
 
 
This iron work is on the bridge I crossed the water way on.
 
This is looking back at my hotel after crossing over on the bridge.

 
I couldn’t find anything to explain this piece of art but I liked it.  It was near the bridge.

 
111Km Cafe & Bar.... I didn’t get a chance to go into this place as it was closed, but I thought it was cool; considering Sarria is the 111km point of the Camino.  Sarria is also known for its witches.  I found that surprising....

 
A group of pilgrims doing the Camino together; standing on the road.

 
 
For those of you who’ve never been to Spain...in most of the towns, villages and hamlets I visited...this is what the roads/sidewalks looked like.  I had a very hard time remembering this is actually a road and not just walk way.  And the yellow arrow you see on the corner of the building....these are what thousands of pilgrims follow for hundreds of miles from Jean Pied de Port, France, across the northern part of Spain to Santiago and on to Morte de Costa; Finisterre
 

 

Today, I spent some time to mediate– to be still, – to listen to my soul and consider where I was two years ago, where I am today and where I see myself in two years from today.  I created my altar.  I created and signed my scared contract.  I’ve prepared by journal and as part of my daily affirmation, I will be using my Oracle Cards. 

My affirmation for today comes from my Soul Coaching® Oracle Cards.  The card I drew is: “POWER; I am a radiant, glorious, powerful being.” – The message reads: “Express your strength with grace and take back your power.  It’s safe to own your gifts.  Accept that within you is a place of divine strength and inner ability.”  A nice reminder; I know who I am to be brilliant and...not only that it’s ok but more importantly....I’m ok with it!
 
 
And this is my “Air” altar.  For the next few days, I’ll add to it.  The truth is...I’ll likely move it to a larger surface that is more secure than where it is situated right now.  The drum pictured here is Celtic designed and was a gift from my daughters.  The bell, St Francis, was a gift from Denise Linn handmade by Tibetan Monks.  My Buen Camino Pilgrim was a ‘gift’ from an artist at Mount Goza Spain, just before entering Santiago. Kokopelli, is usually not too far from anything I hold dear.  This one was a gift from my mom. My feather was given to me by a little boy who saw me picking up nature’s trinkets.  He smiled and said, “This comes from a pheasant” and so...I have it.  My parents gave me the ‘wind’ carving which was done by a First Nations’ artist named Lorreen Henry and...I used a pink scarf (likely purchased at the Dollar Store or Ardene’s) to set my base.  And...I’ve placed my Power affirmation card on my altar.
 
Today, the wind seemed to know I’d be more aware of its presences.  Sometimes it was blowing furiously as if to say....let’s get this cleaned up....and other times, it was as gentle as a soft stroke offering comfort.  I cleaned the main bathroom and...I made a list of all the repairs my home needs.  I’ve done as productive inventory of my life and my home as I can today.  Now...I will celebrate by taking some time to enjoying some food (homemade pizza) and spend some time with my children before calling it a day.

Oh, and today...I realized I’ve been spelling “Bon Camino” incorrectly...you’ll notice I’ve corrected that!!!!

                                                                                                            ~Buen Camino


These are the first two blog entries I did while in Spain:

http://carleana-csc.blogspot.ca/2012/07/arrived-in-spain.html
http://carleana-csc.blogspot.ca/2012/07/sarria-resting-up.html

 

Camino 2014 ~ Day 2


First, I want to share photos of our moon, taken Sunday evening; July 13, 2014. 





I love my camera!!!!  It has been a great purchase!!!!   The photos I take….are often brilliant.

I’ve been away from most all news and information sites but I believe this full moon was the “Super Moon” and what a wonderful time to start my journey! 

Yesterday was quite a day.  I spent most of it addressing urgent matters, which I will not focus on; at least not now.  I want to stay in my positive place as much as I can for the next few weeks.
 
I also got a few smaller projects done.  I don’t know how many of you live with others, but my laundry always seems to be chaotic.  Every so often I’ll clean it right out and get it organized but….it never fails…within a day or two….one would never know it was ever organized.  This time….I didn’t do a full out culling, but….I did manage to find a happy medium.  The “garbage” stuff has been removed.  Items that could be put away are and…the rest, I moved to look as if it belonged where it’s placed.  And, I finished up the remaining laundry.
 
I also, spent quite a bit of time in my favourite two rooms;
my library



 and my sunroom.



These are older photos.  For the most part things are the same.  There have been a few items moved.  Plus, the sunroom ceiling has been repaired.  It needs it again around the sky light, but until I can repaired the roof, I will have to endure.

 In these two rooms I enjoy reading, sipping tea, chatting with friends and doing my healing work.  Most everything in these two rooms, I have received as a gift from someone dear to me and usually when I needed it most; including most ALL the furniture.  In the library, the sofa, chair ottoman and wooden table were gifts from my friend Marianne.  All the other furniture was gifts from my parents, to me.  And…many of the items you see came from my children.  These two rooms bring me bliss and tranquility.  In them and with my treasures, I am comforted and feel secure to explore; which I did, on Monday.

 With the scent of sweet grass, sage and tobacco, I played my drum and my crystal singing bowl.  The vibration each creates….fills the house with enchanting echoes.  I know for some this is foreign and they don’t understand it but…for others….you get exactly what I’m referring to.  It’s almost a euphoric sensation, without any ill side or after affects.   

I took my daughter to work; came back home and did a bit more tidying.  Then, we picked her up.  We all shared a treat and called it a night.

 Now, I will get refocused on today, so I’ll have something to write about tonight. 

        ~Bon Camino

Sunday, 13 July 2014

Camino 2014: Getting Started ~ Day 1


Today was a day spent mostly preparing for the beginning of my pending pilgrimage.  There are many projects around the house that need to be done and I would like to prioritize.  I was also contemplating my reason for this event and my intent.  I’m getting excited!

The other thing I did, while in Spain; I completed the 28 Days to Discover Your Authentic Self; which is part of the Soul Coaching® work I do.  So, I’ve decided I’m going to add this re-discovery process to my journey.  As well, I’m also going to make a real effort to add into my daily practice, things I enjoy doing, but have let them fall out of my ‘normal’ activities.

I have several beautiful singing bowls, bells and drums....I love not only how they sound but how their songs make me feel.  I’ve several other ‘toys’ I enjoy working with such as my many Oracle Cards, Runes, Scarabs Stones and my scent items such as oils and incense.  And then....there are my beautiful crystals.  Often I use these, either alone or in a variety of combinations, to quiet my thoughts in order to hear my heart and soul during meditation.

 ~ Side bar:  Years ago, I met this amazing man named Jim; who owned and operated the Enchanted Peddler in Wortly Village; which I visited regularly.  While he carried many items, it was his crystals I loved most.  After a few visits, I was blessed to call him my friend.  I would go into his store and say, “Jim, I have $50.00 to spend, please pick me a crystal.” Most days I had less than $50 and some days, I was excited to have more but every time....Jim would pick me the most amazing pieces and...I know he always gave me wonderful deals.  When the time came that he decided to close his store....we spent even more hours talking.

Jim had finally posted his “Store Closing” sign; and with it, he was offering some wonderful savings 30-50% off.  I had some money from Christmas and birthday presents I’d been saving for some special purchases.  The Enchanted Peddler had beautiful gems, jewellery that would qualify as a “special purchase” but, what I was really interested in  was a crystal ball.   He had perfect flawless spheres in many sizes and colours such as blues, greens, reds, yellows and of course clear. 

My eye was set on the mid-size clear crystal ball that sat beautifully on an ornate metal stand; but it was $700.00.  Often I said to Jim, “When I make my first $1000.00 I am buying that piece.”  The other crystal ball I was very attracted to was, the smaller indigo blue ball; a little bigger than a golf ball – but flawless and it captured the light beautifully.  It was priced at $150.00. 

I took $250.00 of my gift money and decided to spoil myself.  I was hoping to get the blue crystal ball, one of ‘my’ crystals and perhaps a piece of jewellery.

When I entered the store that morning, Jim was sitting quietly in his chair, reading one of his books.  I hugged him and said, “Jim, I’ve come with $250.00.  I’m hoping to get the blue ball today.  And, would you mind picking me some other pieces from your crystals, gems and jewellery?”  I was there for the better part of two hours.  We laughed and cried as he told me about his adventures picking out each piece and what The Enchanted Peddler meant to him; and to me.  My phone started to vibrate and I was needed elsewhere. Our visit was coming to an end.

Jim put all the pieces he had picked for me together and asked if these would be ok.  In the basket he prepared for me was two one of a kind crystals he had specially made for himself, a crystal butterfly (for my business It’s the Butterfly Effect Inc), a heart shaped crystal citron ring, a rose quartz tear drop pendant and....the mid-sized crystal ball I was hoping to purchase when I made my first $1000.00.  I reminded him I only brought $250.00 and that I didn’t have any more money to offer. 

“I’ve put this together for you Carleana.  For all of it, taxes included, it comes to $175.00.  I didn’t forget your $250.00.  Please accept this gift.”  OMG!!!!  He added, “I hope you don’t mind, but I switched the base from the metal one to the glass one.  I think that crystal ball looks much better on the glass base than a metal one; don’t you?”  He was right, of course.  I smiled.  With tears in my eyes, I accepted his gift.

Literally, the value of the items Jim gave me that day easily exceeded $1000.00.  I offered to give him the full $250.00 but...all he’d accept was the $175.00.  To this day, I wonder, why $175.00; but....I was extremely thankful for his gift.

In the remaining days, while the store inventory dwindled, I would pop in to see how he was doing and pick up another trinket or two.  He had these three beautiful glass display units too; historical pieces in fact from a dairy farm in the Tilsonburg area.  I wanted one so badly but, even though he offered them to me at a great price....I just couldn’t see how I would get them in my house, let alone where in my house I’d put them.  My philosophy in life is....if you put it out there and if it is meant to be....be ready; it will be!”

I told many people of the Enchanted Peddler over the years and how amazing I think Jim is.  Some people went to him and others.... didn't. One such person who went to Jim’s store was my friend, Kat.  After one of her visits she came over to share the items she purchased.  A few days letter, she came over with two men and a truck....Kat and Jim worked out a deal and....Kat had purchased all three of the units and....she gave me one.  I was so surprised and excited.  It is so beautiful. When I look at it the unit from Kat and all the treasures I received from Jim....I am reminded how blessed I am.

These will be some of the many treasures I have in my life, which I will remember and focus on during this pilgrimage.

For now...I will end this entry.  And as I bring my day to an end...I will appease my grumbly belly.

                                       ~Bon Camino

Saturday, 12 July 2014

Back on line, and just in time.....


Two years ago today....I posted my very first blog entry! 

When I came to the world of blogging....it was with great excitement and anticipation for a future, I expected would be filled with wonderful surprises for my family and those I held dear.  I looked forward to meeting so many wonderful people and...I anticipated spending more time with the man I married; looking back at all we had overcome and celebrating the rewards of our hard work.  And so....as I prepared to leave for my Compostella de Camino de Santiago in Spain, I started my blog to share my journey with my family and friends.  One person I gave a lot of credit to, was my husband; my “soul mate”. 

At that time...I believed he deserved it.  Of course, had I been privy to the secret he was holding onto....I may not have given him as much credit, especially considering what transpired while I was away.  What he knew, but I didn’t, was...upon my return (within 21 days) he would be walking out on our children and me. The signs are always there, we simply choose how we wish to interpret them rather than accepting them for what they are.  Someday I may elaborate on this further but for now.....

I don’t have to like what he did or his timing.  I do know I didn’t want to fight him.  If after 23 years he didn’t feel our family held any value or importance to him...what could I possibly do or say?  I understand things change; so I chose to accept this was “one of those things”.  What I wouldn’t stand for was him abandoning his responsibilities; especially when I knew/know he has the means to meet them. Foolishly, I thought, there was still some decency in him and hat he would be fair and just as we separated.  I’ve only ever asked him to keep his word and do what was right.  It has taken legal actions and court orders to re-iterate what he and I always knew to be fair.  Sadly, justice has still not prevailed; leaving the children and me at a grave disadvantage. 

This whole experience has been an incredible eye opener for me on SO MANY levels.  My savings has been depleted.  I can never recover the loss to my pension fund.  I’m not receiving support payments as court ordered, even though I’ve assumed all the financial responsibilities for our children, our home and myself.  My situation is quite gloomy but....I refuse to admit defeat.  I don’t know what more I can do, or where to go and so....for now, I’m going on a “vacation” of sorts. 

You know when you come home from a holiday you usually get to reflect on your trip; you talk about it, share it and maybe even look at a photo or two.....well when I returned from Spain I never had that chance.  So, over the next few weeks, to bring balance to my life...this is the “vacation” I taking.  I am going to take time to reflect on my Camino.  I’m going to read both my blog and my journal entries from my pilgrimage; and I’m even going to look at photos.  As I do so, it will be my intent to ‘relive’ my experience from a different perspective and share this with you on my blog. 
 
Life is good!  Even when it seems as if the weight of the world is heavy on our shoulders, we can still choose to set it aside, rest, breathe and reflect. 

In one of my entries, I wondered....why do we feel we need to go away to find our centre in our lives?  Well, for the next 21 days....I will explore this more deeply.  Because I’m doing this from home...I’m excited to watch how my “Camino” this summer is both similar and different than that of the one I took in 2012.

When you’re on the Camino people often ask why are doing the Camino.  In 2012, my reason was, "Because I wanted to".  Perhaps it was because I needed to ~ even if I didn’t realize it at the time.  However, if I were asked why I am doing this Camino, my answer would be “To remember, to never forget, Who I am to be Brilliant.”  

I am also going to add an intention to this journey.  I’ve been invited, to attend a very special retreat with some amazingly brilliant people this fall, being held in Scottsdale Az.  Over the past two years, I’ve had to pass on similar invitations that would have taken me to Greece and Hawaii.  Repeatedly, I’ve been shown I always get exactly what I need, when I need it, but I don’t always get what I want.  I believe attending this retreat is a need, but maybe I’m not reading the signs right?

As I close, I invite you to join me on my Camino.  Perhaps you will make your own inner pilgrimage?  As they say along the Way of St James....Bon Camino! 

In kindness; and always with love....Carleana
 
 
Welcome to my blog!  Click on this link to read: http://carleana-csc.blogspot.ca/2012/07/welcome-to-my-blog.html
 
Who am I to be Brilliant?  Click on this link to read: http://carleana-csc.blogspot.ca/2012/08/our-deepest-fearwho-am-i-to-be-brilliant.html